Monday, December 14, 2009

(dec 13th sermon)

You know when God really does something in your heart.. moves you, opens your eyes, breaks you in areas that need to be broken.? That was how church was for me yesterday.
I am so thankful to be in a place where TRUTH is taught and a place where I can respond to grace.
I am so thankful that God truly does love me to reveal areas in my life that are not like him.

Wednesday, December 9, 2009


This post is from Sarah Markley’s blog.
Amazing and thought provoking~
The Gap in the Covenant
Sometimes my husband and I seriously don’t get along.
We’ve been through this, we’ve gone to marriage counseling, we’ve sat in billions of Bible studies and listened to enough sermons to fill a 64 gig iPod.  We even counsel other couples and speak to groups about marriage.
But more-than-occasionally we miss each other. Like really miss.  (Picture unathletic college-me taking tennis as a class and missing the fuzzy green ball over and over again.  That kind of miss.)
We talk loudly and even hang up the phone. We glare and growl sometimes too.  We flop over in bed and turn toward the wall.  We sulk and scowl.  We expect the worst and live in the past. We think mean, selfish things.
Why can’t he just…
What would be the harm in him….
I’ve told him this a hundred times…
But, even so we have a covenant.  We have binding promises.  We didn’t say Until One Of Us Wounds The Other. Or Until You Get Really Mad At Me.  Or even, Until We Really Really Hate Each Other. We said Until Death Do Us Part. It’s forever.
What makes the difference is this: we are learning to live in the gap of the covenant. Because sometimes only one of us is upholding our promises. Love. Honor. Respect.
When he doesn’t hold up his end, I hold up mine. When I fail miserably and say something un-take-back-able, he stands still as my husband, unshaken by something as fleeting as a word in the face of a promise. Even though it hurts and it takes time to get over, we are learning to practice this.
But our example for this isn’t each other (we are far from skilled even at this) or even another couple we admire. Our example is the first Covenant Maker.  The One who stands strong in the face of our adultery, our hatred, our selfish words and actions.
He IS the gap in the covenant. He even stands at the altar with us knowing we will become distracted and trip over our own desires.  He knows we will not keep our promises. He knows we are destined for cheating.
But He lives there, right in that place where we don’t keep our end of the bargain. He doesn’t flop over in bed or think mean things. He doesn’t glare at us and live in our past mistakes.
He wants us to live the way we were designed to live. The way we vowed.
But until then, He’ll live in that gap unshaken by us in the face of unmet promises and He’ll make up the difference when we can’t.
Are you living in the gap in your marriage?

Holiday Fever!

Hope everyone had a great Thanksgving as now it is full time to Christmas. I dont know why but the time between Thanksgiving and Christmas always seems to get shorter and shorter to me. I know it is the same amount of days but it just goes by fast now! Maybe it is because I have two kids, much more demands and a lot less free time.

Jeremy and I are just getting back from a much needed and amazing getaway trip to NYC! it was perfect! We got to sleep in, drink coffee, tour NYC and all the amazing nearby cities and just ENJOY each other. We also got to visit our good college Friends Marcy and Robby Towns so that was even better.

Everett and Emery got to have the time of their lives being completly adored and SPOILED by their Gigi and Popee.( jeremy's parents) and know we are having to detox Everett and remind him that the world does not revolve around him even though his Gigi thinks so... He even told me yeseterday in the car that He was Gigi's boy only now... Man she really must have spoiled him!
we are thankful that we have such amazing grandparents who love to be involved in our kids lives..It is a great blessing!

tonight we are off to buy our Greene Christmas Tree, watch the fake snow come down at a local outdoor shopping mall and enjoy Hot chocolate coffee( that is what Everett calls it)